hey everyone,
hwachong squash lost the semis. we can only settle for 3rd place now. we have been defeated quite a couple of times coz my batch n my senior batch, both only managed to clinch the much coveted championships when we were sec 2, the two consecutive c div golds that we got. but after those two glorious years, neither batch has seen a gold. and yet again, a gold has eluded us. all of us will most probably graduate without being able to see another gold again. sigh. how much we desire to lift that challenge trophy after for so many years.
today totally sucked. we got a horrible line up. i felt terrible when the line up came up coz i was partly responsible for picking that line up. when we lost the last match, it was by a narrow margin. we only lost to rj by 1 player, 2-3. almost every girl in the team was in tears, my seniors disappeared to emo, we had to start conducting searches for our own teammates to console them.
sigh. it was terrible. despite so many years of defeat at the finals, i have never seen so many people emo at once. and it didnt help at all that rjc won coz of the dsa people. 3 of their players won us while we won 2 of their players. the two that we won were ex-ri people. from the 3, one dsa-ed from acsi while the other two, was sadly ex-hci. my ex-teammates. people who i had trained with, through thick and thin, and after 4 years of investment by my coach, these two b**tards dsa-ed to rj.
i admit i am pissed off with them and i am not only talking terms with both of them now. my best friend in the team was totally upset after he lost the deciding match to our ex-teammate. i am starting to wonder how it feels to dsa to another school and play for them, beating your ex-team especially when you are instrumental to their defeat. i am not trying to assume some moral high ground here. i have no right to decide whether what they did was right or wrong. in fact, i dont believe that there is a right or wrong. but i simply wonder, how is it like to beat the people you trained with for 4 years juz for people you barely know after 4 months. if those two felt great after beating us, i rather not have such people in the team. but if they had any conscience left, they would at least be guilty inside. how could they do this to a school and a team which has contributed so much to their development in secondary school.
i admit. i am bitter about our defeat. but that is simply becoz i keep imaging how perfect things would be if they hadnt changed schools. those days and memories we had together as a team no longer matter now. i just have no idea how i am gonna face them next year when i play for the team. and its sad to already confirm our defeat to rj next year. its totally impossible to defeat them when our team is so weak. this year was our last chance. and we blew it. sigh =(
Life is a roller coaster, and you never know when it is going to take a turn.
